In 2009, Manchester United lost a game against Barcelona in Rome, which caused Michael Carrick his 2 year depression.
The defeat was considered to be his “biggest low” in terms of his career.
“It was my dream to be at a World Cup but the truth is I didn’t want to be there. I wanted to be at home,” this was the ex-England international’s statement.
Carrick couldn’t stop blaming himself for the loss of the Champions League final defeat in Rome, “after he gave the ball away in the build-up to Barca’s opening goal”.
“I beat myself up over that goal,” Carrick told The Times.
“I kept asking myself: ‘Why did I do that? And then it [the depression] snowballed from there. It was a tough year after that. It lingered for a long time.
“I had won the Champions League the year before, but that was totally irrelevant.
“It felt like I was depressed. I was really down. I imagine that is what depression is.
“I describe it as depression because it wasn’t a one-off thing. I felt bad or terrible after some games, but then you get over it in the next couple of days, but that one I just couldn’t shrug off. It was a strange feeling.”
He believed that no one knew of the extent of his mental struggles not even his teammate, parents and his wife – Lisa.
I kept it to myself most of the time. Even my family didn’t know the full extent of it,” he says.
“It’s not something that’s really spoken about in football. I have not spoken about it before. For the lads that I have played with that are reading this, this will be the first time that they know [about the depression]. They wouldn’t know.”
It was in 2006 when Carrick transferred from Tottenham Hotspur to United where he made 481 appearances. Now, he is an assistant coach at old Trafford. His previous awards included five Premier League titles and the Champions League in 2008.